In Search Of A Hero

In the unlimited confusion that clouds our mind now and then, it is our natural tendency to look up to someone to show us the way. We instinctively seek someone to guide us through the haze that blinds our vision, and to stand by us as we confront our own demons. It is not that we fear to take on our battles alone; after all nobody can fight them for for us. Nevertheless there are moments of weakness that make you really wish for a shoulder to cry upon, to share your woes, anxieties and trauma with. It somehow lightens the pain to be just able to talk about it. But then you wonder how right it is to burden other people including your friends with your personal emotional distress, and whether they really care. At such times we desperately seek a miracle worker, or a hero ; someone who can make our troubles vanish with a swish of a wand. It is certainly quite in the realm of wishful thinking, sometimes even a trifle escapist, to expect to always find such perfect attributes in our friends. In fact I don't think we even want to do that. We love our friends because they are normal, straightforward, and well grounded individuals. We do not mind them having a joke at our expense. We allow them to take liberties with us and reveal the deepest secrets of our hearts to them. In spite of this level of intimacy among friends, there is a secret longing that urges each one of us to look out for someone special. It does not necessarily have to be a romantic fancy. It could be for all you know, but sometime all you are looking for is someone who is far too perfect to be true. We admire such a person to the point of being in awe of him or her, and cannot bear the idea of a rejection from him or her. We care a lot about such a persons' opinion of us, and are overtly sensitive to any signs of indifference
or carelessness on his/her side. While such behaviour can hardly be termed rational, it is really pointless trying to resist the gnawing desire of the heart to wish to find a hero in someone we admire or respect.